Thursday, June 7, 2007

I Don't Want to Do This!

Why did my sons do this to me? Why isn't there somewhere I can go, something I can do that will completely distract me until this is all over (one way or another)?

Instead I sit here on my comfy chaise w/ my laptop, day after day searching for something that's not out there. Searching for someone, something, that will make this all go away. Something that will make it just a bad dream and when I wake up my family will be all together and safe again.

Depression symptom: I don't even want to go shopping. As trivial as that sounds, that's an 8 on a 1-10 scale. A 9 I probably would not get out of bed and go to work; a 10, I'd be comatose. I've never been a 10 but I'd like to be right now. I can visualize it --- a ward of soldier mothers all lined up in old fashion hospital beds w/ iv drips to keep us asleep until our sons come home --- the Twilight Zone.

3 comments:

Butterfly Wife said...

"Instead I sit here on my comfy chaise w/ my laptop, day after day searching for something that's not out there. Searching for someone, something, that will make this all go away."

Perhaps what you are looking for isn't in the computer. Try looking inside yourself. The answer usually lies within.

I'm sure I am not telling you something that you don't already know. Just a reminder. ;) Take care.

Michele said...

Hi Jo Ann Hopefully you are ok... if this is what you need to do, then I suppose you must do it. Perhaps blogging isn't a good thing right now. Maybe volunteer work or a craft project to keep your mind busy.
I hope I didn't offend you in any way. I miss ya...
Take it easy.

liberal army wife said...

AMx3 - It's not going away. I'm sorry, but it's not. but it will go to a simmer. and while I don't want you to stop blogging, you still need to find something else to get involved in. Maybe Soldiers Angels (make a blanket or 3), or something like that. If it overwhelms, step back and MAKE YOURSELF think about something else. NO, that's not easy and I'm not giving you platitudes, you know better. But I've been where you are, and dug myself out of that deep hole. If you need a military counselor, (ie, a counselor who understands military) look for one.

LAW